Yes, it has been a while since my last post, but I have been through a turbulent summer. A lost of a job that I love doing for my customers and colleagues whom over time become friends. It has screwed me over mentally and physically. I nearly went back on the tablets to help escape the grasp of the black hole. It affected everything and put me behind on all projects and social events. It felt like poison seeping through me, and I nearly ended the suffering by taking my own. However, I did not take my life since I am still here typing this post out. And l am not on any medication to steady the unstable ship going into the black storm. Instead, I rode it out. I took my ship and drove it through the eye of the storm and out again. I was a mess but in a better place. How did I do it? I planned my route and stuck to it thanks to the next steps skill and the new tools I learnt self-analysis and swot (strengths, weakness, opportunities and threats) Now my ship crashed on a desert island, it’s time to figure out what I want in life? It starts with the main three spiritually, mentally and physically. I am glad that my spirit and faith kept me going and only needs tweaking. Mentally and physically needs a lot of work. After using the tools again the start of my new life path has been the paved way. Time to stick to it and the plan to get me back how I was before the black hole, the dark storm, grabbed hold of me and started pulling me in.
Also, I like to thank the people who have supported me throughout this time. I will keep in contact. take care.