(this post should’ve been posted last year in October but the scheduler didn’t upload it) Yes I know it has been a long time since I have posted on the blog, but a lot has gone on. Some events happened and have hit me hard mentally. But I have marched on continuing everyday life putting on a mask to hide the pain and sorrow. I feel like seeping into the shadows of anxiety and depression again and fading away until I’m totally gone. Noises and speech muted, presences unaware and forgotten. However, I’m still here trying to regain the courage and determination from my meek mind and body. I would like to give up one day but I’m not going too. The past few days I have been thinking about myself and how to play it!!! The biggest problem I have is me, I am my own worst nightmare. I will, one day, ignite my fire again and walk along the path strong and fearless but after I cleared out the nightmare I’ve distinguished once before.