My universe and the black hole

MY blog about me, hobbies and my battle with depression

Under the black cloud

Yup it has been some time I wrote in this blog. Lets see for most people I am an author of six short stories soon, been in a new job for over half a year and expanding my grounds on photography. Good and I still suffer from depression and anxiety mainly in the social bit. Nope you have misread it. Last year was so turbulent that it has threw me off course. I miss few people and try my best to reconnect. But doesn’t always go to plan. Recently I have been staying up late at night thinking is it worth it! Funny because on 6th march I felt I can take on challenges and had fire in me the determination I use to have. But I Think that has been extinguished now weird is it! So what I am going to do next? Answer don’t know. Maybe I could cut all the negative people whom cant be bothered and save my time spent on them and remove all the fake and tag along people from my circle. Move to a different area since I believe I may have exhausted this area but I have just resettled myself down again. Stop doing things that are not productive and I have taken it as far as I can. Or finish of what my body was doing to me year and half ago! But no I was given another chance. So I better not lose it since the scars remind me of it. Looks like I am in a cycle that only me can break out of it. Think a change is in order and trying to do it is harder than I think it was going to be but would be nice if someone can go inside my brain and suck out the black cloud out. So I will never know what will happen next but I am hopeful that my future could be bright but I will never know where it will might lead!

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My 2015 photography collections

My latest photo ebook

Click on link below and enjoy

2015 collections

for my other ebooks click on my books tab

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Anglesey Abbey winter lights 2015


It was going to be a special evening, but my relationship fell apart however for me it wasn’t meant to be. So I decided to go alone. It cleared my head and travel around the site. But then after getting my pulled pork roll and hot drink I felt alone, knowing if it carried on I would have a lot more fun. So I carried on missing out a light and shadow performance. What caught my eye throughout the trail was how they used milk bottles and turned them into decoration


winter lights

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Trail walking

In august I have been on two trail quests. In bury st Edmunds a wolf trail and in Norwich a dragon trail.
The wolf trail there is 26 wolf sculptures around the town created by various artists.
The dragon trail is bigger there at least 82 large dragons size of an average human and 120ish small dragons places around the city and even as far as an airport. However the dragon trail is in aid of a charity called break a children’s charity based in the east Anglia (small description of charity) if you get the chance to go on a special trails which are similar to these, admire the art work of what the artists has put in to.

For pictures click on link below


go go dragons


Dahlia festival 2015

Walking around Anglesey abbey, a certain flower has overtaken the area and has been used to create artwork. The dahlia and there are all different kinds of them. Some are used to make the autumn baubles or use to wrap around a tree. Follow the trail to see what is waiting at the other end. Chilling along the river floating away as the world goes by.


Click on link below to see the beautiful colourful flowers


Dahlia festival 2015

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Burys wolf trail

11 july23

Hidden around Bury St Edmunds are wolves. Searching high on rooftop and low as the pavement big as adults or small as printing blocks I manage to find 24 out 26 wolves. Almost a perfect hunt if I had an extra hour. The art work is incredible and I place my favourites on my Instagram account click on link below for all my pictures but if you count one wolf short. It’s because one of them was a motion pictures.

Burys wolf trail 11 july25

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Busy Bee and links

Hi there

I would to say thank you for waiting patiently for the get post. I have been busy with a lot of things.

Firstly, I had a tablet review and on the agreement from the doctors and me we have agreed to cut my medication from 20mg to 10mg

Secondly, I have been busy with a stall preparation and have been fully focus on it.

Thirdly, I have links to new accounts and pages that have been started up so feel free to look but sorry if they are bare however I try to update them after the stall.


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Riedal’s photography

My facebook photography page

riedal’s photography

why riedal? because its part of an anagram i use to use but that’s another post.

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Mum and Dad silver anniversary

Pictures of mum and dad silver anniversary


click on link below:

Mum and Dad silver anniversary

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Countryfile: the birth of my photography

Country file calendar competition was the main reason I started photography. Over the course of 5 years I always enter it since it was an obsession. This year I’m having second thoughts. What if I win it? Will I carry on with it or be shelved? Also it will save a headache trawling over 3000+ photos to find 3 candidates for the competition. I received lectures and messages all saying ‘do it, enter and go for it’ however there was one person said “will be healthy to give it a miss” probably but I know I will regret it. I have 4 weeks to make a decision and if yes send in the pictures. The public says enter. My heart says enter however my head says don’t. But my head is foggy at the moment and my meditation guide said “ask your heart for guidance.” So no decision has been made but it’s near.

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